weaning. that single word has consumed so many of my thoughts for so many months. i've googled and read and discussed and cried about that word.
i've felt guilty and ashamed and frustrated and embarrassed and like a total failure that i haven't taught my nearly two year old how to sleep.
but last night i made it happen. we started the process and holy cow, it wasnt even that bad. i was finally ready and im so happy to know corbin went right along with it.
the lowdown: corbin typically wakes up 4-6 times a night, is nursed to sleep, and cant go back to sleep unless he is nursed. for months now ive tried waiting to see if he can work it out on his own by not going to him right away. (he sleeps on his floor bed in his room and whoever goes to bed last brings him in to bed with us) then when i get in his room i try to just rub his back but its never worked. things never got any better and it always resulted in nursing him back to sleep. so last night after i put corbin to bed i googled some more about toddlers night weaning and i cried when people talked about how it took over a month to have any success and how their toddler threw up from crying so hysterically the first night but i felt like if i never started, i'd never get anywhere. ive tried doing this a few other nights before but ive always given up. but not last night!
ten pm. corbin wakes up. i put my game face on, ryan wishes me good luck, and i got in to his room. i told him, "no more milk. we're going to go night night, you can have milk when you wake up in the morning". those are words i know he understands. i wore a shirt with a tight collar so he couldn't reach in for the goods. he scratched and clawed at me and cried for "nigh night" and "milk". i just layed there and sang quietly and kept repeating that he can drink milk in the morning. the first wake up was the worst but after about forty five minutes he just quietly rolled over and went to sleep.
two am. pretty much just repeat what happened earlier. he asked for water and drank a whole sippy cup full. and he only cried off and on for about twenty minutes this time and then rolled over and quietly went to sleep again.
five thirty am. corbin woke up while ryan was up getting ready for work so he came in to say goodbye. since it was light out and corbin woke up so much i decided i would nurse him back to sleep. unlike most times when he was done nursing he just rolled over and went to sleep on his own.
nine am. woke up for the day! he nursed for a few minutes then was ready to out "dirt" which means "out" to the living room! haha i made sure to really cuddle and kiss him and cheerfully tell him, "yay, its morning! time for milk!".
is it weird that im excited to do it again tonight!? i just am really looking forward to him being able to put himself back to sleep without nursing and it seems like we are well on our way!!
currently he's napping. every. single. day. he wakes up after napping for thirty-forty five minutes and i have to go nurse him back to sleep. you guys, he's been asleep for an hour and eleven minutes and i haven't hear a peep! ITS REALLY WORKING!!!